No one but YOU!

A recurring theme reared its head a few days ago. "I'm not enough."

It's something I visit every so often, sometimes briefly, sometimes powerfully, sometimes it knocks me around quite a bit other times I just see it, and let it go.

Well a few days ago, it showed up and big and I decided to really take a look at it and not give up or get distracted and let it go.

I started off by seeking support from a good friend, later my husband and a few days later another friend. They all supported me, gave me words of encouragement and loved me in this awful place. It did seem to help, but not for long. It lasted for a few hours, a day, the intensity diminished but did not resolve.

I then decided to take the belief, this belief, I've had since childhood, that I inherited, developed or just adopted, who knows??Probably all three...And I took it to the paper and did The Work...it probably took about an hour, but I can't describe the release I experienced as a result.

It was in my second turn around that the energy shifted, that there was an opening and the thought lost its hold. The turn around was from, "I'm not enough." To "This thought is not enough." This thought is limiting me, trapping me, not allowing creativity to flow through me or compassion or anything constructive for that matter. This thought is what's causing my suffering, not what I know or don't know. I've been trying my whole life to prove or disprove this thought. I've been trying to please this thought!!! HAHAHA....WOW. I just sat there with this awakening and couldn't believe it. Moments later I started feeling qi move in my body and release. A heavy burden lifted.

The circumstances that brought up this thought to begin with, have not passed, but I am working with the circumstances without putting myself or my life down. I don't need external support as much and I'm feeling more empowered to move on through.

NO ONE can walk your journey for you! NO ONE! It's great to have support and inspiration from those around, but you have to do it. Do The Work and strengthen your ability to walk through difficulties.